Yesterday, I sang Metallica's Unforgiven II..The lyrics was complicated, that's why I sang it with different words..(but with the same tune). He taught me the correct one & we sang it together..I love music..I want to sing..But at times, he got annoyed with my faulty lyrics. When Mom and I went for shopping, he sometimes asked for tapes..(Metallica, Gun's n roses)..I admit, he has this passion for music..
Way back, when he was still studying in college, I opened his bag and found a very short pencil. I felt like crying 'coz I pity him. He saw me & just smiled. I gave him one of my magic pencil and he burst into laughter. "I still have a box here. It's my lucky pencil that's why I don't use the others." He said..Then, we burst into laughter.
One time, upon arriving at our house, he approached me angrily & attempted to slap me. But our Mom stopped him..He was very mad. Bingo, our dog, followed me while I crossed the street, & he was bumped by a truck. It was a terrible death..But I couldn't do something for I was late for school. Funny though, because of Bingo's death, we haven't talked for 3 days..
Once, he & my father had this huge fight. It was a traumatic experience for me..But one thing that reminds me of him was when he transferred at my aunt's house & stayed for months. Hearing stories that he washed his own clothes, helped in household chores..gave me a terrible heartache, for he was not used to it..
Oftentimes, we compete in a game show. If I got the wrong answer, he'll teased me & called me "dumb". Laughing out loud when our Mom answered the trivia wrongly or mispronounced something, I was the one being pinched. There was never a dull moment watching a game show with him. Battle of the brains. That's why insults from him was o.k though..
But one morning, I was 1 & 1/2 hour asleep when Mom rubbed my back vigorously..Shouting my brother's name. I saw my father hugging him tight. My mother was weeping, bursting into tears. I felt though my brain was empty..Until we arrived at hospital & was declared DOA (Dead On Arrival)..
21 years with my brother, didn't give me a chance to say "I love you".. Not even got the chance to say "thank you"..Hope through this, I can let the people know how I love my brother..I really miss the person whom I know can defend me..Who'll never set me free even if the strong wind might blow me away..Who can save me if somebody breaks my heart..
That's why, never miss the chance to appreciate and say the words you want to say to the person you love.. As an excerpt from the movie "Click" said.."Hug them, kiss them and tell them that you love them. Don't miss the chance that life is giving you to spend with the people you love..There are no rewinds." For me, It was wasted time..
2 comments:
aaawww! made me teary eyeed! nice one glai!
had a cousin who was like a brother to me and we had a similar bond. seven years later, the wound is still fresh. i think one never really recovers from something like this, and he can only do his/her best to cope with it.
oddly enough, i was writing an (actual) journal entry about said cousin when i stumbled, quite by accident, on this blog of yours.
and unforgiven II was the song that literally inspired us to learn the guitar when we were kids.
pardon the intrusion, but the coincidence and the timing here was just too wrenching to ignore.
weird... anyway, just dropping by... hope i didn't freak you out or anything.
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